Release for Everything I Know, and Everything I’m Ever Gonna Know is today. Its story is, to some extent, about a relationship in which the newly formed couple is reasoning through the effects of past fornication on their current relationship. It is, I hope, nuanced, taking inspiration from and contrasting its own tale with great works and thinkers of the past, most notably Thomas Hardy’s take on gender purity-standard inequalities in Tess of the D’Urbervilles.
I am now deep into outlining mvn-sn, my next production. Unless I decide to make some radical changes, the surface-level plot centers around a duology of sexual exploitations enacted on our protagonist.
I bring up both of these in order to pose a question, both to myself and those who read this: Why so dark, why so sexual?
I don’t believe either of these qualities are innate to my writing. In fact, the next story I’m planning on writing* is about a young boy in a village awaiting an elephant named “Popcorn”. So why are these stories focused on such heavy topics? And is it okay that they are?
Hmmm… I suspect it is because of my current belief that one of the scariest elements of our current culture is that common people can live outside of the grounding of reality. As in, they live in the world of the abstract, which, mind you, I love. Yet, if one stays in the world of the abstract, two things happen:
- One must question why. Why, that is, are they thinking about such things? Abstractions of this ilk are simply rules that apply in many scenarios. And yet, if the scenarios never arrive, then why does one need a solution? Much less a solution that applies to many scenarios.
- The abstractions are not tested. We must test our abstractions on something. My epistemic disposition leans towards logic, but logic in itself is an abstraction and often too minimal in variables to handle real-world variability. It is like the trope of the nervous man that lays out every possible situation that could occur before he talks to a girl and tries to plan out a solution for each… One will never be able to fully understand the variability of the world prior to engaging with it.
Wait, but does this make sense for why I write more challenging things? This feels a bit disconnected… Perhaps it is this: I am wanting to treat people as adults?
No… No… Instead, let’s try this: I am wanting to expose the user to evil in small doses so that when they come up against it in life, they will not be killed by it.
Ah, yes. This fits.
It is also why I believe that the “childification” of adult media is such a blight. Where is our vaccine?
*This is very subject to change.